Open Question: Struggling with drug addiction and in desperate need of help! Please help!!?

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I have been struggling with a drug addiction for over a year now. It all started with marijuana which led to ecstasy which led to pain meds which led to cocaine. Before drugs, I was always the “good” girl. I was heavily involved in choir, drill team, and HOSA. But all of that changed. I was hurt by so many of the people that I let my happiness depend on. I had a lot of bad influences in my life and ended up hanging out with the wrong crowd of people. I went to truancy court for skipping 18 days of school over the course of the 1st semester.. out of 179 days I was present 161. My judge court ordered me to go to an inpatient rehab for 30 days. The rehab really helped me a lot and dramatically changed the way I think. I realized that none of the people I hung out with were true friends. They were all “using” friends.. No one has even called to check on me or anything. Anyways, my judge also put me on the type of house arrest where I can’t go anywhere without a parent. I truly believed coming out of rehab that I would never use again. 3 days out my dad accisentally left the keys to the alcohol cabinet out and I drank. I HATE drinking. I’m not sure why I did it, I guess the opportunity just presented itself. Needless to say I told my dad about it immediately because I drank more than I intended and I was crying the whole time until I blacked out. I felt the worst guilt of my life for a week after that. I’m a 17 year old girl who’s grown up without ANY necessities, my family loves me SO much. And while in rehab I realized that it wasn’t worth it to me to use drugs if it meant losing everything including my family. I haven’t had any cravings since I drank and I’ve been sober for about a month now. The arising problem is that my parents put me in a sober recovery school to be away from all of the bad influences in my life, but there are still people who use there and cheat their bi-monthly drug tests that we all have. It’s a huge temptation.. I realize that drugs will be everywhere I go and I have to learn to say no.. It’s just so hard. I wish this hadn’t happened to me. I lost all of my real friends so long ago and I have so little trust from my family. At times I feel as if I’ve overcome this disease but other times I feel very week. The only thing I still really crave are cigarettes which I was allowed to smoke befor I went to rehab but I’m not anymore. I just want to be ok. I don’t want to live like this anymore. Sure, things are slowly getting better, but too slowly. I’m still young, and I want to turn my life around. But it’s not easy. People think it’s so easy, as simple as just “not using” but it’s hard to understand unless you suffer from this disease. I would really like some advice or maybe even someone to talk to when I’m going through a rough patch. If you read through my whole question; thank you, it means a lot :)

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Open Question: Drug addiction recovery at 17 years old. PLEASE help.?

Filed under: Cocaine Rehab

I have been struggling with a drug addiction for over a year now. It all started with marijuana which led to ecstasy which led to pain meds which led to cocaine. Before drugs, I was always the “good” girl. I was heavily involved in choir, drill team, and HOSA. But all of that changed. I was hurt by so many of the people that I let my happiness depend on. I had a lot of bad influences in my life and ended up hanging out with the wrong crowd of people. I went to truancy court for skipping 18 days of school over the course of the 1st semester.. out of 179 days I was present 161. My judge court ordered me to go to an inpatient rehab for 30 days. The rehab really helped me a lot and dramatically changed the way I think. I realized that none of the people I hung out with were true friends. They were all “using” friends.. No one has even called to check on me or anything. Anyways, my judge also put me on the type of house arrest where I can’t go anywhere without a parent. I truly believed coming out of rehab that I would never use again. 3 days out my dad accisentally left the keys to the alcohol cabinet out and I drank. I HATE drinking. I’m not sure why I did it, I guess the opportunity just presented itself. Needless to say I told my dad about it immediately because I drank more than I intended and I was crying the whole time until I blacked out. I felt the worst guilt of my life for a week after that. I’m a 17 year old girl who’s grown up without ANY necessities, my family loves me SO much. And while in rehab I realized that it wasn’t worth it to me to use drugs if it meant losing everything including my family. I haven’t had any cravings since I drank and I’ve been sober for about a month now. The arising problem is that my parents put me in a sober recovery school to be away from all of the bad influences in my life, but there are still people who use there and cheat their bi-monthly drug tests that we all have. It’s a huge temptation.. I realize that drugs will be everywhere I go and I have to learn to say no.. It’s just so hard. I wish this hadn’t happened to me. I lost all of my real friends so long ago and I have so little trust from my family. At times I feel as if I’ve overcome this disease but other times I feel very week. The only thing I still really crave are cigarettes which I was allowed to smoke befor I went to rehab but I’m not anymore. I just want to be ok. I don’t want to live like this anymore. Sure, things are slowly getting better, but too slowly. I’m still young, and I want to turn my life around. But it’s not easy. People think it’s so easy, as simple as just “not using” but it’s hard to understand unless you suffer from this disease. I would really like some advice or maybe even someone to talk to when I’m going through a rough patch. If you read through my whole question; thank you, it means a lot :)

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Open Question: How Can I Move Forward from this? I feel really ruined want to die?

Filed under: Cocaine Rehab

Hello, I’m 36 years old and I’m in a really bad situation in my life, I’m broke, unemployed, an alcoholic and my family hates me, the problem is that pretty soon (I’d say about a year) I’m going to run out of money and practically be homeless, and I’m gonna need a place to stay and someone to support me and pay my debts, I’ve thought about staying at a friend’s house for a while but that wouldn’t be permanent, so I really really want to move back in with my parents, the problem is my father hates me and my mother sees me as an embarrasment. so please read the following and give me some advice, I’m not even using my own computer right now (I’m using my neighbor’s he let me borrow it for a few days), the worst part about all this is that although I’m dirt poor right now (I’ve got about 15,000 Dollars in the bank and I’m in terrible debt), I used to be very rich and I mean very, I had at one point a net worth of about 22 Million Dollars.

Ok, so to start I’m a high school dropout but was always a very enthusiastic person, I moved out of my parents house about 13 years ago and went to LA to become an actor, that didn’t work out but I met some really great people while I was trying that stupid dream, I appeared on some TV episodes, commercials and a bit movie role here and there, but it didn’t matter, the people I met were amazing contacts.

Ok so about a year later with some little money I made from acting and money my girlfriend gave me (she supported me at the time) I invested on some internet companies and became a millionaire about 2 years later. I felt on top of the world, my dad had always told me I’d never amount to anything and always be a loser, but after making millions I went back home for a few weeks and rubbed all the money I’d made on his face, he didn’t even seem mad, he said he was proud but that I should give some to charity, well I insulted him and his salary (he makes about 95,000 a year) and I made fun of charities. Over the years I barely talked to him and when I talked to my mom she was always sad over my life.

As time went by I started investing a lot of money into different stuff (including porn websites) and I got richer, I had a lot of really beautiful women, wanting to be with me (I broke up with the girl that supported me after I became rich) and also became addicted to cocaine and alcohol, I lived a really depraved life, I had sex with a lot of women before being married (I’m still not), I did drugs, drank all day, acted like a narcissist and spent my money on useless things instead of stuff that matters. Now I’m ashamed of how I acted.

Anyway about 4 years ago, I lost millions and millions of dollars on very bad investments and on stocks, my net worth got reduced to about 3 Million and since I was so drunk and high at the time, I didn’t even care, I just thought I’d make it all back. Well I didn’t and my addictions didn’t help, I lost my house, my car and had to move into a smaller house, then I realized just how bad my situation was, I checked myself into rehab for the drug addictions and did beat them, but the financial problem was getting worse, since rehab was so expensive and I like an idiot was still trying to live my previous lifestyle.

So now I’m here, poor, and an alcoholic again, since Ive been really depressed, I tried getting help from friends and apparently theyre not my friends anymore, huh so ironic, I tried going to my ex-girlfriend and she hates me now.

So all I’m left with is my parents, how can I convince them to let me move back in? my dad is still really offended by all the horrible and hurtful things I said to him in the past and my mother is still heart-broken over how I’ve acted, but I’ve changed, I see now that I was worthless in the past despite my money, as a person I was a piece of trash, maybe I still am, but I’m really scared about my future now, non of the friends I’ve had the last decade have been real friends and now I only have one friend left in the world and he’s kinda poor too.

So please for the love of god, give me some advice, how can I fix this, How can I move forward?

PS- I just poured my heart out right here, I know this is a website and it seems like a pathetic last resort, but please don’t make fun of me

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